Last night was Weight In

and as I guessed I was up not to bad a pound, but still when you've been yo-yoing like I have enough is enough. I took a tracker last night and I counted points today, its been a long time since I wrote anything down so I committed to it today and hopefully I'll feel like being committed to counting tomorrow. I'm going to take it day by day for a little while and see how things pan out. I'm tried of planning for the week and telling myself you have to do good this week. Day by day is what I can handle at this point, and maybe but taking day by day I'll have a good week. I really need a good week and a good weigh in. I pulled some pork chops out this morning and I'm going to try roni's sweet and spicy pork chop recipe, with grilled veggies and brown rice. My mouth is watering as I type this, but I'm still at work and then it's off to take the dog to the vet, then I can cook. Well that's it for now

Some How I always....

end up kicking my self when I'm down. I did really good all week untill friday night when I had a dinner to go to. Blow it big time and the bing lasted all weekend, I did get back on track and had a great day on Monday and a great day on Tuesday until dinner. I didn't eat at home I ate at my moms and for some reason I can't eat around other people. I always eat to much when I'm eating with other people. So I got on the scale this morning and as I guessed it I was up 1lbs. I have weight in tonight and I'm tried of going there only to get on the scale and be up like every other week has been for the last 8 months. Should I stop going and wasting money? Should I keep going and try to pull myself out of the funk? Good God I don't know what I want to do, I don't know what I want in life and I sure as hell don't know what I'm going to cook for dinner! Ever since I started weight watchers 2yrs ago I've been thinking about food everyday all day long. How much can I have? Is this to fatting? One little bit wont kill you. Well guess what it got me all thoese little bits that I took, they found there way on to my ass and it looks like they are here to stay. So to day I'm saying F**k it I'm not counting I'm not watching nothing.Okay okay lets face it you know I can't do that, I'm to worried about gaining weight to do that, but damn did it feel good to say it.But for real I need help any kind of help.