Because I'm work and don't want to work

What's on your mind right now?
The fact that I'm work but I don't want to be. I need to controll myself and not over eat because I have nothing else better to do. Thinking of ways to become a friend to the girl nextdoor we are the same age and I have no friend where I live right now.

Where is your biological father right now?
This is going to come out wrong but there is no other way to put this.
He passed on 3yrs ago

Do you have any piercings?
Ears and nose

Do you have any tattoos?
Two. The one is on the lower right side of back a flower. The second is on my wrist and it looks like hell the person who did it f**ked it up and now I have a ugly scare instead of a kick ass tattoo!

Is your driveway steep?
Don't have a driveway


Name 3 things you did/are doing today?
Walked the dog at the ass crack of dawn. I'm going to cut the checks today at work, and maybe paint the bedroom tonight

Have you ever been tied up?
Um no

Have you ever had two dates in one night?
Can say that have


Which shoe do you put on first?
Which ever one I happen to find first


Do you get distracted easily?
Story of my life, sometimes I look for this to distract me. I like doing things at the last minute


What is the last thing you do before you go to bed at night?
Kiss my hubby


Have you ever kissed anyone named Amanda?
Nope

Have you kissed anyone in the past 24 hours?
Yeah

What was your childhood nickname?
This could take a little bit so I'll just name a few.
Beaners
Bina
Bina Bina
Beanie
you get the point, somehow my family thought that bean was a good nick name for Sabrina!

What would you change about your life right now?
Nothing, I'm really likeling my life right now

How do you feel about public displays of affection?
I dont care, if you don't like it then don't look

What's the dumbest thing you have done while driving?
hit a parked car like two weeks after I started driving


Have you ever bitten your nails?
Yes all the time

Do you live alone?
Nope I live with hubby and puppy

Do you like someone right now?
I sure I hope I like the person that I married


Can you keep a secret?
Not from the hubby, I feel the need to tell him everything


What was the best year of your life?
The year I met my husband and every year after that so far


Do you have any strange phobias?
bugs

When was the last time you hugged someone, where and who?
This morning, my hubby before he left for work

Your favorite movie is?
Oh goodness, here are a few
Never been Kissed
13 going on 30
Superbad

Have you ever played Twister?
Not in a long time


Have you ever been drunk at school?
Yeah


Last thing received in the mail?
Bills


Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with a C?
No I don't think so


Do you have trust issues?
In the fact that I tend trust people right away


Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
yeah


Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles?
No in fact it really bothers me if the paper starts to fall off


Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
The FedEx man.


Are you a cuddler?
Sometimes


When was the last time you gave advice to someone?
I try not to


Have you ever attempted to hurt someone when your mad?
Maybe I don't know. when I get mad people I cut them off and never speak to them again


Is it easier to forgive or forget?
I don't forgive or forget


Do you have a best friend?
yes


would you live with someone without marrying them?
to late for that now


Do you remember what you were like a year ago?
Yeah I was running around like an idot planning a wedding


Have you ever had a dream about people you love dying?
I try not.......happened way to much in my life

Who was the last person you cried in front of?
The hubby


Have you ever shaved in the kitchen sink?
no


Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
yeah


Have you ever fell in front of somebody you liked?
I fall all the time


Do you like late night conversations?
depends on who it is


Do you have a temper problem?
yeah


Do you feel that somebody loves you?
I know soomeone loves me, he tells me many times a day

What a weekend

I started off really good with a 4.5mile walk. I went to get my oil changed and during that time instead of waiting at the dealership I called my mother in law and we took the dogs for a walk. It was great and the best part is I got 4pts for it. The hubby and I always go to dinner on Friday and I had a some of the hubbys steak with shrimp and scallops that I ordered. All and all a great day.
Saturday was not that good for me, I traded in my walking shoes for a dust rag and vaccum. I cleaned ever inch of my house and I have to say that I really like it when it's organized. The house is so small that any little bit of disorgnization will make the house look like a bomb went off. Okay back to eating was good untill lunch at ruby tuesdays. 1 turkey mini and the salad bar. You know I can't be trusted around mac salad I ate way to much of it. Then for dinner I had to slices of pizza.
Sunday was okay untill luch. >y mom made homemade pasta and boy was it good and yes I ate to much.
Today I've done well and I'm planning a good dinner. Hopeful the weekend didn't set me back to much.

Thursday 4/9/2008 ( I clearly do not know what day it is!)

So last night was weight in and I did better then I thought I was going to do. I'm down 1.4 this week and I hope to be down that or more next week. I've planned all my dinners and luches for this coming week and my list for food shopping. I'm planning on going food shopping tomorrow after my doctor appointment and getting everything orgazined for the week. I have no real challenges coming up this week but thats not always a good thing for me, when things just come up and I haven't had time to plan thats when my will power wavers and I suddenly forget how to count points. It's something that I'm trying hard to work on. Weekends are always bad for me and this week I have a plan. I'm going to make some low point burgers and freeze them so I just have to warm them up for lunch.
Friday night dinner we always go out, but this week we are going to Applebee's. Now the only thing I have to do is order off the WW menu and not the boneless wings that I seem to love so much.
Saturday I'm babysitting for my brother and his wife. There little girl is really picky but eats pizza so I'm going to make my whole wheat crust and hope that she eats it. Her little brother still eats baby food so he's covered for now.
Sunday I normally go to breakfast with my mom and Grammy but this week I think I'm going to cook. The husband loves when I cook him a good Sunday breakfast. Something from a weight watchers cook book, not sure what yet. Sunday my mom is cooking lunch and making homemade pasta, so I'm going to just have to watch my portions and that's that.
Then Monday it's back to my good old rut that I love so much.

Frustrated

I'm really frustrated, not just with weight loss but with everything. I had a really good week on plan, had family things this weekend with lost of food and really well at them. Yesterday morning when I got on the scale I was 156.9 and I was like that's good all my hard work is paying off. Yesterday I did really well, ate my points, took the dog for his walk and did some lite house work. I get on that damn scale this morning and I'm 159.6.........how in the hell did I gain 2lbs in one day. Someone please tell me, I'm counting the the damn points, I started working out, I gave up coffee and DIET COKE! and yet the fing weight is up. I am so ready to say screw you weight watchers you are the devil and you aren't working cause I'm still FAT!

I counted my points and I'm going to go for my walk when I get home. Tomorrow is weigh in and if I didn't lose any weight I'm done, that's it, its been almost 2yrs and I'm the same weight I was 6mons ago.

I'm glad its Monday

Something I never thought I would ever hear myself saying, but Monday means back to my day started a weekend of family events and with that comes food, and lots of it. Austin's aunt is in from WA state so this week end we spent lots of time at with his family.
Friday dinner started things off and I have to say that I didn't do as bad as I could have, in fact I did well. At his grand-pops house you do not put your food on your dish, grand pop serves everyone and then calls you into the kitchen to eat. So my plate was loaded with enough food to feed 4 people. I ate one cabbage roll and about 1/4 of the mashed potatoes that the loaded on to my dish, Austin ate the rest. Then for dessert there was pie, and apple pie with two crustes. So I cut myself a very tiny piece and when no one was looking I throw the top crust in the garbage and ate filling out of the pie. All and all and okay day.
Saturday rolls around and Austin and I took the dog for a walk in the park. It was so nice out and Lucian loves to be outside, also it was a good workout for the mommy, lots of hills. Of course it wouldn't be Saturday if we didn't have Chinese for lunch and I did good there as well. I had won ton soup and some seaweed rolls. I also had some fried rice, but not a whole lot. Then it was time to go to church, I was planning on coming home and making dinner, but the meat that I took out was still frozen and then hubby was really hungry so we went to Red robin. I had soup and 1/2 a wrap.
Sunday was the big family dinner at my mother-in-laws. I decide that I was going to make some picky foods that I knew I could eat, so when everyone was picking at stuff I had something to eat. It did the trick and then I took Lucian and MeekaMIL puppy) for a 1.5mile walk to get away from the food. I came back and it was time for dinner. I ate some ham and mostly veggies.

All and all I had a good weekend. And a very good day today.

6 Word Memoir

all you need is love!

I know its only five but thats all I could think of

I did awesome....

awesomely bad that is. I gained a pound, I know that it doesn't sound like a lot but when you've gained and lost the same 1lb for like 6months something has to give. So I had Kristy go over my journal from last week and I'm going to make some changes where they need to be made. So here is my list of changes that I want to make this week:

1. I'm going to try to have coffee every other day this week. It's the one thing besides diet coke that I have everyday and lets face it I'm in love with creamer.
2. I also eat some kinda of frozen dinner for lunch and they have sodium in them, so I'm trying to cut back on that as well.
3. Eating they points that I when I workout. It's important to eat them, so I'm going to.

Other then that I have to keep a positive attitude and keep working towards that goal of mine. Its' been a long road and I'm struggling like hell right now but I would be ling if I said I didn't enjoy it. I love a challenge and lose weight is only have the battle in the quest to find myself.

Spring is here....I hope

I can’t believe that it’s April already, it seems like Christmas was just last week to me. Where does the time go? I say that it seems like Christmas because thats when I promised myself that I would get to work on this weight loss thing I’ve got going on. You know putting myself first, making sure that counting points and daily activeiy are part of my everday life. I can report to you that while I’ve been counting, well semi counting and some working out I’ve lost like no weight since December. But this very dark cloud that is my platue has a silver lining like all clouds and that is April.

April to me is the start of spring. There are some many nice things that come along with spring that really help me get motivated to do something about my weight. Here is a list of behaviors that I want to start changing now that’s it spring, and hopeful the number on the scale will follow my behavioral changes

1. It’s still light out when I get home from work. You know what that means, that’s right no more excuses as to why I don’t want to walk the dog. Yesterday Lucian and I walked 2.5 miles, I’m working my way up to 5 miles by October.
2. Yesterday I took my last sip of diet soda. I’ve been tyring to kick the habit for a while now and I thought no better day then the 1st of a month to give something up. I figure if I can go the whole month of April with out it, then I wont crave it after that.
3. I got my hair cut. Now I know ya’ll are thinking what does a hair cut have to do with changing habits for positive weight loss. Here’s my thinking, I’ve then same since December and I liked the way I looked there for I didn’t feel like changing anything. So I cut my hair really short, (I’ll post a picture soon) in hopes that my new hair style will motivate me to take make the changes that I want to make to my body, so I can feel as good about that as I feel about my new hair. If that makes any sense to at all.
4. No new clothing until I’ve lost 20 more pounds. I’ve been rewarding myself in a sense for coming this far, and I really think it’s one of things that are holding me back. I don’t want to get to comfortable at this weight.
Okay so there is the list of things that I want to do this spring. No its a list of things that I will do this spring. Got to run
Bye